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well i lied when i said it was gettin better. i feel utter shit. i feel sick. i can't stop cryin. i feel like my whole life has caved in. all i want to do is scream. i want him back. i dont think i can cope without him. it hurts too much. i can't see any other way, i can't see a way forward. i can't live like this. i don't want to live if i'm not with him. why would he do this. why? how could he change in just a matter of days. i don't understand. i don't want to have to understand. i just want him back with me.